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Sunday, September 20, 2009

It had been a very long time since I cleaned this blog. This period had been very toughed. Stress load from school is heavy because for a fact, I am taking double degree. Most importantly, I was completely outcasted by the girl I loved most. I need to confess on alot of things over here. It seems that only this place, I could say everything. After she had told me to stop all these, I had actually make a very rashed decision. I accepted another person, christal. but I found myself comparing her to ah girl. I know it's unfair to her and I did exactly what my buddy had done before. It's equal to toying her feeling. But as for now, I told her that I am toying her. I had thought it through. I cant forget ah girl at all. I went to drink, went bonkers, i had even made chris worried. She said all she heard is how much I loved and missed ah girl. No doubt, I can even see disappointment in chris' eyes. Have known her since I got in SMU. I am thankful I know her but I am sorry to say, I really cant replace ah girl easily in my heart. chris even said she can wait for time to come. I seriously dont know how long I would take. For the time being, maybe it's impossible. chris had called QF in which had alerted that bitch. that bitch scolded ah girl and ah girl was very pissed off. In the end, it made our relationship worse. I am so lost. I even missed a day of lesson to go away. I went to spurlge on drinks. Drinks and drinks. It's been so long, why is it my distance and ah girl are getting so wide? This is the last time ok? I promise to change... Please give me the last chance... I promise, I will try to let go... Because I just want you to be my very best friend at least... Let me take care of you as a friend... At least... I love you... As for Chris, if affinity allows, we will still be together... Thank you for those days and I am sorry for the nonsense and comparisons.